The Scariest Day of My Life

A few months after I moved from Illinois to Kansas to start my graduate studies, I made a doctor 's appointment for my chest pain and shortness of breath. I think that 30 minutes of invasion became extra scan and it became the most terrible day in my life.

It was shocking when a doctor told me that a grapefruit size tumor is in the heart and lungs. I lived in the hospital the other day. After one week, after dozens of examinations, it was diagnosed as diffuse large B cell non-Hodgkin's lymphoma. At that time I had enough needles and medicines, but that was just the beginning of a journey to overcome my cancer.

My hematologist told me he needed six rounds of chemotherapy and possibly radiation therapy to do so. I lose my hair. I will feel bad for six months because I am tired. My reproductive ability will be threatened. Among all that I'm trying to end, my biggest concern is my pregnancy potential. As a single woman without children, I definitely will not have children with my future husband. I can choose frozen eggs for future use, but this option is very expensive. When I was told that LIVESTRONG helped solve the economic burden to maintain fertility, I was lucky to know that an organization helped me fight.

Today I have no cancer for 6 months thanks to God, my family, close friends, medical team, and LIVESTRONG. I am now at a graduate school, gather money for cancer research, and live a fulfilling life everyday. Life basically returned to "ordinary", but my family and my lesson leaves and views changed. My cancer journey is the most harsh experience in my life, but I am not going to change that. I met new people, learn new things, and learned more about life and health.

This is the worst day in my life. The life I knew in the past 25 years would have to be over, and that is difficult for me to learn. Like many other men and women, I came here for "dreams" or I want to say that, this is an intuitive guide. A small gnom behind my head made me believe that I would succumb to that vision. So, I returned to Coldwater Canyon Avenue. I live in a beautiful residential street. I went into the driveway and Isaac, one of my roommates, welcomed me. He and the other two roommates made me feel welcomed and comfortable on the first night of the evening. They took me for a walk and took a look. Next I learned that I was in Ralph's grocery store. It is equivalent to that of Wegman of Rochester. I love the food of Wegmans.

I am now 53 years old, and today, that day is the worst day of my life. The terrible part ... the plane monster ... is doubtful. I doubt the skill as a pilot. I did not improve the movie in my mind: I was too young to fly ... I could not land this plane ... I should train more. .. I am here now as I wish for my dad! I am going to collapse! The doubt is that we have an 800 pound gorilla flight co-pilot during our lifetime. It sits next to us and sometimes crawls in our head. But as we acknowledge it and connect it to our seats we can overcome the confidence, anxiety and attention mistakes that we can not win or survive in the game of life.

So far, I have been unemployed for 7 weeks. The day when I received the phone was one of the most terrifying but liberal days of my life; the third of my life, I was immersed in the world of work. I participated in the running program held in Washington State when I was in my teens. This is an opportunity for high school third graders and higher level students to learn more than 100 levels of free courses at higher education institutions. But I have a diploma in my hand, came out on the other side, and my back pocket which is equivalent to an assistant has no credit. There is no degree, there are people around, there is a tip on my shoulder. Many overtime allowances, missed vacations, and monthly licensing staff can not eliminate them. I think there is something to prove