The Red October of my Life

It is the warm morning of October when I first faced the shame of a shy person. There, I was 9 years old in the classroom shortly after classmates, I read a story called "Malageta Pepper John". It explains the children's story and whenever he experiences an embarrassing situation in a tragic life, he blushes quickly. The problem is that I just experienced that morning shameful experience. Do not ask me what it is; I know that a few minutes after the incident, classmates started calling me "Malageta pepper John", and everyone in the room to follow him I had a stone heart.

This is when I hit the bottom of the rock, I decided to change the fulcrum of my life. I was studying hard until I became 18 years old, I entered a relatively good "Red Brick" college (University of Reading, "redding") and eventually won a first-class honors degree in electrical engineering. He also earned a master's degree in electrical engineering from Stanford University (one of the world's top universities) and has become a world class computer processor architect and architect. I invented at least 10 patents in this field. This is not all to brag about (little, maybe) to show how much you can change my life so that the next writing will be qualified. Persistence is the most important thing you can get. With skill, let's explain why.

Life began in October 1987, and interestingly, most of my big changes in my life also occurred in October. In October, I started out with my wonderful person, and I was still happy. My research began in October and my "growth" stage started. Or, to put it another way, I came to be aware of the way of personal growth. We left Slovenia for the first time in October. In October, we were pregnant with a third child. Unfortunately the miscarriage brought me a big pain, but also made me strong. In October we will start a new adventure by exploring the world.

By writing down my life, I have found two major modes of pain in my life. One is in October where the trauma is very complicated from one year to the next and I have not experienced this month without physical malfunction this month. I look back in my body, not in my heart every year. Memory is still trapped in my bones and whispers to me. At least for the moment, I understand why I feel so unstable when October comes. So in the same way my model evolved, I have to complete the memoirs in the spring when my life is in full bloom. When my depression was so intense and it covered everything, I did something very energetic. Know where my anxiety came from and why it is triggered and, in the absence of signs of a threat, please help me deal with the subconscious mind that the ghost is still bothering me. This month is the time to make them free.