At elementary school, I created the word "I have a stomachache." There are too many words, so it will be a joke if the pain doubles. Every time my older brother said "I am hungry", I answer "I am hungry, I am very happy to meet you." There is no grammatical meaning, but laughter continues
The pain is various. Sometimes it feels like being bored and unobtrusive. Sometimes it feels like all the organs in my body will not function and death is too close. I have been to the emergency room for so long, but I have not thought of those who lost their lives because of a great pain. Last time I went to the hospital was the day before the high school exercise in the upper secondary school year. The previous period was during summer practice. The first time was a few months ago at 4 o'clock in the morning. Of course, I have never approached death so far, but I have exceeded my pain tolerance over and over.
Ten years ago, it felt that a toxic existence entered my abdomen, and as the years went through, the pain lever did not stop until the pain worsened and Tylenol stopped, then continued. It will never be expected when this subject selects its action policy. It constantly moves from left to right, to the chest and from behind to the right, sometimes it shoots even on the head. But the worst thing is that there is no way to get rid of this toxic substance in my body.
Missed the competition, practice, and warm-up games. I have to date a person I like very much. I often cancel an important plan. I had to go to bed early, and my homework was piled up high. I abandoned my friend many times at the end of the last. It is terrible to get on. My goal is to survive throughout the period without hurrying to complete early. I have missed much in the past 20 years, but no solution has appeared.
I have met many doctors and I have been to many offices, but I have not got any answers. There are too many blood tests, X-ray examinations, ultrasound examinations, food magazines, random searches, and ultimately results are not obtained. Everyone in the emergency room leads to stomach relaxation, then confusion and wrong answer
I learned to deal with this pain. Whenever you feel uneasy, take a rest or take a nap. I am no longer going to see a doctor. I have never found a cure, I learned to ignore this torture.
The last doctor suggested that stress is the cause of pain. Stress may occur due to excitement before that day or a big and intense announcement. It is not possible to fix the pressure. But I learned that I can not ignore the exciting plan for my life to avoid the toxic presence in my stomach.
Too often, people use health problems as excuses. Because of the pressure in my stomach, I do not want to do anything important in my life.
At the end of the day, as long as you can feel the pain, you are still alive, this is really important.
Personally, my recent and great achievement (for now) does not exist or even seems impossible. I am dreaming of overcoming my health problems and rebuilding my life to what I desire. That is a hopeful idea in my head. I even think of it as a "dream" by most friends and medical professionals; everyone thinks that my time is not preparation for life, but to devote to preparing for death. But as with rewarding, my idea is materialized after thinking it is worthwhile. It was the first time I thought that the pressure of risk made my dreams a reality. I decided to grab what I wanted and refused to listen to something contradictory to my goal. I can now tell you that arguing these decisions completely changes my life.
As many literature on mental health issues suggest, to overcome many misunderstandings, prejudice and fear related to mental health problems and associated prejudices still have a long way to go. Therefore, harmful and negative attitudes towards mental health issues are eliminated, and the public needs to be more aware of the sense of living with these problems and the patient's courage and strength. The general public should also recognize that psychosis can be managed and treated like many other diseases and conditions. It is also important to emphasize that mental incompetence and hostility stereotypes are very wrong.