Narrative Essay: she always laughs...

She always smiles ... Suicide reminds me of my grandmother and my uncle I have never seen before. Before I was born, everyone was sending my life Last night I talked to my mother about Grandma Ruth. She likes telling me how much Lucy will love me. We often do not talk about her. My mother died when I was in junior high school. My mother always called her "my mother", so I could not think of her name until I became a teenager. My grandfather used the last name: Grandpa P to make a phone call.

Last night, I had a dream conversation with my old friend. She is intelligent, talented and full of light. When she smiled, she smiled very happily; she leaned back her head and laughed everywhere in her body. You can feel her laugh. It is infectious and contains the essence of life. Even if she experienced hardships in her life, I think she insisted on her existence and I think that her life has changed little in her life. In my dream, she shared with me what I felt I quit myself; on my recent trip, I lost the important part of real self. (My wife Chris shared the same thing a couple of weeks ago in order to set the expiration date of the credit.) I have departed from my presence. She pointed out that even in the world of my profession, I was relaxed and happy, full of smiles and laughter. This is the core part of what I seem to be missing.

She always smiled and told me to give up, or had to pee on my own. This always makes me want to do more and she has the ability to say that she makes her laugh very much for herself. We are hand in hand everywhere. My hands and her hands seem to be perfectly matched as if they were shaped to fit our gaps and horns. If we both have to work the next day we talk about things we do not mind at night. She told me all her secrets, but I was frightened. She can say that I did not say all about myself, but do you think she can not be with a person who is not entirely honest? She told me I would not be a good boyfriend, I told her that she proved wrong, she laughed. What does "fuck" mean? I am going to do something for her, I am always doing something to see her smile, but I do not want her to leave, I part this as part of the contract I do not want to.