My Own Worst Enemy

If you have to live your life within the hidden true self, my own worst enemy. The book I recently read was published by Scholastic in 1999 as it was called "my worst enemy" by Carol Sonenklar. In the book, Eve Belkin is a girl who just moved to Michigan because her mother has returned to work in the medical field. Eve spent at her old school. Therefore, her decision to move to a new place is a good opportunity to reinvent itself.

I noticed that I am the biggest enemy. It is in the summer of 2014, I was shedding tears on a stranger's bed. I am not drunk. I participated in the sex acts agreed between the parties. So why am I crying? I put myself in a very vulnerable position and I do not care about my safety. I was addicted to a series of Tinder dallains during the summer. I positively cheated, encouraged dirty chat, and exchanged pictures. I always want to see you. There seems to be no problem. Only physical contact is necessary

I am insufficient and self-confident. I am my greatest enemy. I believe others and it's too fast to let them down quickly. Please calm down slightly. The war I launched against myself was in vain. A person never win. I have become my favorite martyr. I am too young, but I do not know how to live. My anger is ubiquitous and makes sense. I spent a lot of time concentrating in the past, and no one seems to look back and worry about any future disillusionment. One is completely composed in my head. According to the mood of the day, only things that I do or not want to happen. Avoiding inevitable things, a lot of energy is wasted to try to make the impossible. I wasted a lot of time, I did not realize all the benefits I had in my life and focused on negative. I will never come back for days, weeks, months and years.

I complained that I fought myself when I said "being in a resistance state." This made me an enemy. If I were "my greatest enemy" as they said, I will increase my chances of struggle by telling myself that I am fighting. Besides that, I still criticize and criticize myself from my experience, in the long run it will never be rewarded. Strong rebuke may keep me working for a short period of time, but it will eventually make me exhausted. I do not want to do new things. I am not going to complete the project. I do not want to grab that opportunity. All this is because I am afraid ... it's not good enough, I do not know what to do next, or I will not do other important things if I take time to do this . This is fear. That's all. This is not something I object. This is not a resistance. I will be late. Passive