Grief over My Father's Death

Physics, sleep, physics, sleep physics Erase the alarm clock, turn on the lights, take out the textbook from the bedside table. I surpassed the three rules of Newton in my mind, so today is only the beginning of another regular school. When I looked at the memo on the next page, I was surprised by the sound of the doorbell. At 4 o'clock, who might be at the door. This may be just a mistake. It may be a wrong house. My instinct does not say that; I know what is wrong.

Sad narcissism is often not helpful: sorrow is personal and concrete. My father's sorrow can not be separated from my sorrow for my oldest friend. Tom's mother's aunt and father's uncle died within a few weeks between Dan and my father's death, and he will always be sad in the context of Dan and Walter. People often respond to sorrows based on their own sad experience and their worldview of death. My dear friend saddened lately that my parents died and when I was alone with my father after my death, "This is the most sacred moment I can think of. My heart is connected I remember that she was moved by her sharing and generosity, the intention behind her message, she knows I do not believe in sanctity, but her death The land of it is defined by it.

I am hoping that I have a deep content about sorrow, but it is not the case. In July, I lost my grandfather, he was like a second father; in October, my partner's mother committed suicide; now my father is creepy for several months . My friend told me that sorrow is like a landscape without a map. Another person quotes and sorrow makes you your own stranger. Someone's death is like a bomb exploded in everyone's life around them. Truly, it really hurts. - Cancer is eventually "long-term goodbye" - the last Christmas as a family

However, sorrow is not very effective. At least my sorrow is not so. This reminds me of other things that I have to deal with since Bongo's death: I am ashamed of my sorrow. I continue to hide including my wife. The fact that men often hide their emotions is certainly not a big news, but the target of emotion is a cat, a small and delicate fur like creature, so here is an extra element. There is something in my heart that tells me that this will not happen to cats. Maybe it is because men should not be cats. Collective thinking tells me that cats are women and dogs are masculine, so I should love dogs. why? As a dog, needless to say backpack, it is bigger, more cumbersome and more smelly. It is said that this is all like a human being. Cats must be feminine as they are small, clean, elusive and mysterious