Chris Licht: What I Learned When I Almost Died

Recently, if you are looking up the phone number in your address book, you can easily stop when you encounter the name of the person you are not in contact with. It may be friends, acquaintances. When I do this, I will probably send an email without length or gravity:

Gestures are small, but I am not used to doing that. There is little leisure and exquisite space full of crisis pressure and crisis of cable TV programs nationwide. If I do not make it in the control room, I am thinking of how to make it in the office. If talent is not happy, I will tan it my instinct. When someone is messed up, I can use my fingers to push a bomb like a roadside. I know this. But this show makes me bored, it just can not be accepted. That should be wonderful. I have ambition. I must be a murderer

Then one day I thought that I was under the age of 40, I got worse in a random and difficult way without any warning. Most of the people with medical emergencies, even if they are, are not outstanding from full experience. A few weeks later, my health recovered, I returned to work, and I was very happy and hoping to do so. This disease did not turn me into reform of some big life. I did not want to give up on my position in Fast Lane at Vermont Bed & Breakfast.

But a serious illness has readjusted me. It brings a lot of knowledge as if I unconsciously paid a painful tuition fee for elite education. This is to let go of my fear. This is about what I can control, what I can not control, what people think of me, and what I truly feel. This is about how to use time. This is also true for US Vice President Joe Biden.

I think that it is wonderful if anyone can accept without any dying the education I received.

This book is about Chris, but that is more a survival story. The best way for me to help people learn from Chris and our experience and childhood is to show directly how I learn from Chris and how I learn from family dysfunction and how to survive is. Therefore, I will use myself in an active and self-critical way. I can not criticize that my mistakes and what I have learned do not allow others to learn from my mistakes. This book is very deeply involved in all of these. Both you and Chris are children for a while and you are headed to the church. Do you remember the waterfall that you saw on a family trip in Shenando? Do you remember what Chris said? "See, Karin? This is the purity of nature, its honesty may be severe, but it is never that I will lie."

When Chris was third grader, Angela's father died. He is suffering from a heart attack. When he died, I was the one the coroner called. I arranged his funeral and tidied up his house to sell. Around this time, I had a date with a married woman. And that person raises Chris. She is very patient with the obligations of me and my Angela father. While digging down his house, I saw his detailed National Geographic and Playboy series, a number of unreleased VHS tapes and library books. I have a Marie Callendar lunch box full of their kitchen, probably hundreds of people. I did not sell futon, and when I was buying real furniture, I did not learn to clean the apartment or cook, so I realized this might be me. You can hide it. I understand the appeal of surrender, but patriarch can not make me a hermit.